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it is 9:25 pm 12/29 intake: 10mg at 11:50 am; 12/30 intake: 9:09 am; 12/31 intake: 10mg at 11:34 am made some sourdough: notes: i don't quite know how long to wait after feeding before using the starter so far, i've been using it after 4 to 8 hours i think my favorite one so far was right around 6 hours after feeding don't dilute salt in water; add in dry knead for a couple of minutes prior to the initial resting/ autolysis i think this aids in distributing the salt and mixing the two different flours wait and let rest 1 hour fold, 180, fold, 90, fold, 180, fold; repeat the previous step and this step 2 more times for a total of 3 folds lightly wet hands prior to folds and peel with scraper before the first folds i stop wetting hands once the dough starts to pick up easily without sticking and when the dough looks visibly wet using premium potato starch in place of rice flour in the banneton; i just happened have that instead of rice flour i prefer using the banneton unlin...

it is saturday, 11:21 am another day, another sapporo; channeling my inner samurai gourmet going to bake my sourdough today following a recipe off the interwebs: heat oven to 500°F transfer loaf to dutch oven score the loaf bake for 20 mins, covered reduce to 450°F and bake for 10 mins remove lid and bake for 15-25 mins cool loaf  currently on the bake for 20 mins, covered step we shall see how it goes maybe i'll stop by the studio today to do some woodworking maybe the mousetraps worked maybe i'll get a switch lite need to set a timer for 11:50 am, then reduce to 450°F and bake for 10 mins

it is friday, 11:35 am i received 3 emails this morning wishing me happy holidays; i wish i didn't no intake today; rather a room temp sapporo sourdough recipe: 100% t85.       400 grams 70% water.      280 grams 10-20% starter 40-80 grams 2% salt             8 grams (basically every kind of dough should have 2% salt) it is now 2:32 pm i'm sleepy

it is thursday, 1:41 pm no intake yesterday or today dropped gloria off at the airport this morning replacement laptop came in; setting it up right now got a fitbit; also setting it up right now it is 10:11 pm didn't do anything maybe i'll make bread tomorrow goodnight

it is tuesday, 8:29 am intake 10mg at 8:29 am i have a meeting with my manager right now the meeting is over yesterday: target run #2 went well got the last switch in town; animal crossing edition studio shift went well today: currently in a meeting with maker studio crew need to do more codelabs have team meeting with soma it is now 10:11 pm ate philly cheesesteaks; it was good

it is monday, 12:16pm intake 10mg 11:53 am yesterday: i didn't do much no intake got tested for covid went to target: picked up prescription for infection tried to buy a gift card declined; suspicious activity  link to authorize purchase in email didn't work phone battery at 5% 30+ mins on the phone only to learn chase fraud department is closed not sure if this is a particularly frustrating experience or if i am developing aggression either way it was cathartic to yell and punch the steering wheel two days ago, saturday: intake 10mg sometime before 9 am expectations meeting with maker studio at 9 am shift at studio from 2 to 9 pm out the door by 9:20 pm; a new record my memory seems to be getting worse; the days are blazing by  some positive things: corporate laptop replacement order placed; thank you, lilee chase theoretically unlocked my card today; you still suck, chase kilnlink issue was resolved; thank you, joshua today: round two for gift buying at target mother request...

it is friday, 11:50 pm i'm tired and want to go to bed i missed yesterday's entry my body is still dying i went to see another lease space this morning polaris property looks very promising intake 10mg at 8:12 this morning yesterday: meeting with manager; i like him intake 10mg sometime between 7 and 8 am had a lot of meetings with the new team i didn't have work today, but i still feel like i had work someone broke the back window of the woodshop most likely have a nasal staph infection; it hurts it is almost midnight goodnight

it is wednesday, 10:22 am i seem to be writing every other day hopefully it goes back to daily because i'm tired of having to remember intake times intake 10mg at 8:23 am yesterday: intake 10mg 8:10 am reportedly feeling 98% back to normal health had a standup at 8 am i understand why people hate meetings; i do not still feel at about 98% with respect to my health; i don't know what that means though had a meeting today at 8 am; yay spent an hour cleaning out coffee stains from an enamelware coffee mug there's still a little goblin inside my gut causing gastrointestinal distress; there's the remaining 2% there might be an exodus of woodworking staff due to the unfortunate handling of an employee's termination today's todo: today, i am human resources write termination later, effective today put up job listing collect company property console realized this morning i've been using "woah" instead of "whoa" my entire life; woah

it is monday, 4:20 pm had a meeting at 8:30 am with my manager no intake today yesterday: no intake woke up with cold sweats headaches nausea and stomach pains no congestion, runny nose, or sore throat slept all day feel much better today but still miserable nature has me on speed dial 

it is saturday, 8:55 am  intake 10mg at 8:41 am  yesterday: i didn't write an entry intake 10mg at 7:50 am made lobster rolls for dinner first time cooking lobster; pretty straightforward took a vacation day for my 9-5 because i had accrued max vacation hours; still did work i have a meeting at 9 am; in 2 minutes today: studio shift: 2 pm -10 pm

it is thursday, 4:58 pm studio shift is in 17 mins intake 10mg 6:38 am yesterday was eventful business partner had a meltdown during a meeting business partner fired someone business partner won't respond to texts or emails today was busy: new studio viewing this morning in south bay place looked good but it was too expensive said hi to michelle and her new puppy met my new team (finworks) consoled fired employee consoled current employee career development discussion with said current employee more emails ate some leafy green things; they call it a salad going to be late to work

it is wednesday, 10:04 am intake 10mg 9:29 am with coffee recent behavioral changes: longer times between meals dinner is relatively the largest meal don't feel cold, but always bundled up; long sleeve + 2 jackets + beanie/cap more focused/engaged conversations and flows of thoughts; likely because i've stopped day drinking stopped day drinking drinking unprecedented amounts of tea (genmaicha) journaling; if you can call it that started wearing a cap backwards recently completed tasks: picked an llc name for studio collab group (12/8) did 10 pull-ups (12/8) finalized refinance documents for parents (12/7) got a new job/role (12/2) what i didn't do yesterday: codelabs finish emails schedule 1:1 sync ups with team members followup with instructor candidate todo: what i didn't do yesterday studio shift look for student's pieces shop safety training 1k spend seeing as i am finishing this entry at 3:31 pm,  10mg might not be enough

 it's 8:30 am i woke up at 6 am intake 5mg 7 am with light food intake 5mg 8:42 am with no food feel more productive but just as distracted onset of very mild headache last night what i did today: fed sourdough starter prepped studio updates for staff meeting meeting with new manager this journal entry registered D-U-N-S number for soma studio prepped meeting notes for studio collab todo: meeting with studio collab codelabs staff meeting call instructor followup with instructor candidate followup with david, studio neighbor laptop/hardware refresh schedule 1:1 sync ups with team members new team has daily standups at 11am est/8am pst i am now a morning person woe is me

it's 1:38pm i took my first dosage of adderall this morning at 9:30 (5mg) took the rest of the pill (5mg) at 11 am does it work? here i am writing a journal so maybe?  what i did today? docs on docs emails on emails meetings on meetings bought some eggs interviewed a woodworking instructor candidate this journal entry  didn't drink what else do i have to do? finish emails finish docs for lease hunting timeline studio evening shift  drink why did i schedule a meeting with my manager at 7:30 am tomorrow?

I hate it. I suck at it and it always feels like a chore. I hate writing emails, I hate writing journal entries, I hate writing these damn blog posts. I hate how vulnerable it makes me feel. "Am I a shite story teller?", "Is there supposed to be a comma there?", "Why am I writing this?". These are the types of thoughts I have nonstop whenever I write. Every post I've written just ends up as a draft and sits there for a year. "Why are there so many words I can't spell?!" Every year I think I'm going to pick up writing like it's some New Year's resolution. Even just now. As I am trying to vent, I can't even figure out what sentence to write next. "What literary device can I use now?" "Do commas go in between my thoughts?" "Are my thoughts supposed go in quotes?" "Can I curse in my own blog?" "Fuck it all." "Fuck it."  

I admit it's been a while. It's been a while since I last wrote on this blog. In fact, I'd be surprised if every entry doesn't start out with those same words. I guess I haven't quite realized the true benefits of keeping a routine writing habit. Despite that, the thought seems to always linger in the back of my mind. The thought to write and stay committed to writing. Well the time has come for me to crank out a few posts here and there. Stay tuned, fan(s)!