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 the light at the end of the tunnel has gone out.

it is tuesday, 9:43 pm intakes since last post (2/8/21): 2/9/21, tuesday: intake: 10mg @ 11:10 am 2/10/21, wednesday: intake: 10mg @ 10:27 am 2/11/21, thursday: intake: 10mg @ 10:40 am 2/12/21, friday: intake: 10mg @ 10:55 am 2/13/21, saturday: intake: 10mg @ 10:27 am 2/14/21, sunday: intake: none 2/15/21, monday: intake: none 2/16/21, tuesday: intake: 10mg @ 9:50 am 2/17/21, wednesday: intake: 10mg @ 10:26 am 2/18/21, thursday: intake: 10mg @ 8:31 am 2/19/21, friday: intake: 10mg @ 10:14 am 2/20/21, saturday: intake: 10mg @ 11:38 am 2/21/21, sunday: intake: none 2/22/21, monday: intake: none 2/23/21, tuesday: intake: none 2/24/21, wednesday: intake: none 2/25/21, thursday: intake: none 2/26/21, friday: intake: none 2/27/21, saturday: intake: none 2/28/21, sunday: intake: none 3/1/21, monday: intake: 10mg @ 3:27 pm 3/2/21, tuesday: intake: 10mg @ 9:11 am 3/3/21, wednesday: intake: 10mg @ 8:48 am 3/4/21, thursday: intake: 10mg @ 8:27 am i threw up shortly afterwards; unrelated to the in...

it is monday, 12:10 pm intake 10mg at 8:57 am slept kind of early; i feel okay recap: 2/6/21, saturday: intake: 10mg @ 11:53 am made jamie a planter box step stool class update: 4/4; 5/4 is too thick 4'/5' split; 4.5'/4.5' was wrong 8.5" minimum width; 8" was too tight to split into 3 process v1 (8 students):  set up stop block and cut all boards into 21" segments start with 2 boards; 64" & 44" (from a 9' board) end up with 5 boards/segments  joint 1 side of all boards just to lightly clean up the side 2-4 passes at 1/16th inch depth rip cuts on table saw boards will likely be 8.375" wide after jointing rip at 2.7" wide (8.375 - (1/8 + 1/8)) / 3 maybe i should plane before ripping? 2/7/21, sunday: intake: 10mg @ 11:55 am new shampoo, face wash, and soap quite convenient that i ran out of those all at the same time; no, it is not all the same product returned company watch walked around the city with gloria did a drive through...

it is friday, 9:55 pm intake 10mg at 12:17 pm i viewed 3 commercial properties this morning for maker studio i miss being able to sleep in early morning obligations may be the death of me i miss using semicolons; they are the best

it is thursday, 1:50 pm writing these entries are so hard because it feels like a distraction from all the other things in life intake 10mg 9:59 am slept at around 1:30 - 2:00 am and got up at 7:39 am note to self: propagated some plants today i hope they survive today i'm going to interview the candidate i thought i was interviewing yesterday

it is wednesday, 11:27 pm a lot has happened since my last entry, but that's mainly because it's almost 2 weeks quick recap: 1/22/21, friday: intake: 10mg @ 11:42 am discovered the storage unit in my building's garage got broken into all my camping gear and tools were stolen fastest way to downsize first time i felt my "heart sink" 1/23/21, saturday: intake: 10mg @ 11:55 am 1/24/21, sunday: intake: 10mg @ 12:55 pm picked up gloria from the airport 1/25/21, monday: intake: 10mg @ 9:42 am 1/26/21, tuesday: intake: 10mg @ 9:51 am 1/27/21, wednesday: intake: 10mg @ 8:54 am 1/28/21, thursday intake: 10mg @ 10:38 am 1/29/21, friday: intake: 10mg @ 9:39 am 1/30/21, saturday: intake: 10mg @ 12:23 pm 1/31/21, sunday: intake: 10mg @ 12:47 pm 2/1/21, monday: intake: 10mg @ 2:20 pm starting trying out a bunionette spacer/sleeve for my pinky toe not sure if it's even a bunionette, but it's been bothering me since i hurt it on a surfing trip a few months back interviewe...

it is thursday, 3:29 pm i am tired; not with life, but i want more sleep olive sourdough was a success next, i non-plain sourdough variant i want to try is black sesame/roasted garlic i didn't realize there were so many people that didn't like olives i took a lot of notes today that i'd eventually like to transcribe to this platform bread notes, work notes, etc... intake 10mg at 10:32 am maybe 10mg isn't enough anymore i teach a class tonight getting a new phone has been on my agenda for quite a while now; since the iphone se 2020 was announced there are currently 5 phones sitting on my desk; iphone se 2020, iphone 12 mini, pixel 4a 5g, pixel 5 i think the iphone 12 mini is the winner i will return the rest quite a few people have made remarks on my purchasing/product reviewing process i can see why buying a product with the intention of returning it can be looked down on i don't buy products to use them and then return them, but if i have multiple options and the s...

it is wednesday, 11:50 am intake 10mg 11:56 am; starting second 30 day round today is a very special and historic day trying an olive sourdough recipe submitted my first cl for introspect this morning there's a new president today is going to be a long day

it is tuesday, 12:48 pm intake: 10mg at 11:32 am yesterday: i went on a hike 9 mile hike; lake chabot lot's of fishing spots; didn't fish i'm out of shape; though round is a shape big changes to maker studio lots of work to do today i'm convinced i am trying to make up for a lifetime's worth of never using semicolons; perhaps subconsciously and now consciously i still don't think i know how to use semicolons properly; that's not going to stop me peace

it is sunday, 5:01 pm intake 10mg at 9:40 am no intake 1/16/21 probably just forgot to 1/15/21: 10mg at 9:33 am i am considering increasing the dosage today was supposed to be my day off i had to go into the studio today to teach a class because the instructor/employee slept in said employee didn't show up until 12pm; 3 hours late where do you draw the line? be empathetic; "it happens. yelling at you now doesn't change anything. make sure you don't do it again" be stern; "this is unacceptable. this is strike 2.  sleeping in is not an excuse i'm going to put up with." i don't want to think this job is a joke, but i also want people to be happy here i couldn't decide between an iphone se or the 12 mini so i bought both i will return the one i like less maybe i might return both i'm doing another deep clean of the apartment sourdough game is going strong; averaging a loaf a day since the first loaf overall, i think im content in life i don...

it is thursday, 3:12 pm intake 10mg at 9:22 am yesterday's intake 10mg at 8:06 am starting to feel like 10mg doesn't do anything anymore there is a lingering smell in the kitchen/living room smells like a cross between a scented trash bag and spoiled food maybe it's just the smell of the scented trash bag; whatever it is, i don't like it it seems like the theme of the week will be making candles i officially started my new role this past monday time to work

it is tuesday, 7:15 pm last time i wanted to write, i only had sad thoughts i used to keep voicemail messages from my mom since around 2010 i guess when i made some changes to my carrier account last year the voicemails got deleted most of them were from when i first left the house to go to college intakes (10mg): 1/5: ? am 1/6: ? am 1/7: 9:50 am 1/8: 10:24 am 1/9: 9:48 am  1/10: 10:41am 1/11: 8:14 am 1/12: 11:06 am i started drinking coffee again; today is day 2 caffeine intake in general has increased; black tea i have the urge to write a lot, but the fingers aren't doing much typing i'll try again tomorrow

it is 1:41 pm intake 10mg at 11:05 am 1/1 intake: none; 1/2 intake: none; 1/3 intake: none i realized i am a potato; definitely uncooked at best there's always much i want to write, but only so much i can the holidays were quiet it is now 12:01 am, 1/5 i came across a sermon somehow and the pastor says "i'm one who is never sure he has used his time in the best way and therefore struggles with guilt" i think i resonate with that goodnight